Why am i blogging now, after all this time? Well i havent blogged because i am nerved at what the reader my think. Not that i care but i dont want to give the wrong impression. And i am horrible at first impressions. I believe i am the most awkward pornstar there ever was. I don't know the right things to say when it comes to blogging. I am a bit of a nerd at home. But this year is the beginning of change for me.

I have read 'who moved my cheese" and i am enlightened by its story. I am so jazzed by this book I want to buy a crate of copies and give them all to people that i know stuck in life's armpit.

What would you do if you werent afraid? I ask myself over and over. Is it fear that keeps me at bay bay bay, reluctant to share my daily fuck ups and funny bits. Does anyone care to hear about my day? Its just like yours, long and trivial. There are exceptional days of intense sex but thats for another blog.

New years resolutions:

completely quit smoking cigarettes.

Refrain from smoking weed during business hours (9-5m-f).

Live independantly from REM w/o cc.

Socialize more- Parties and Meet n greets.

Reconnect with long time acquaintances over dinner.

Take more Pictures- glamour and social.

Dance.

No more fast food.

More Exercise-24hr or Fitcamp.

Make more friends and acquaintances.

Blog as much as possible-use like a therapy for thoughts.

Webcam as much as possible.

Maintain Social networks-FB & twitter & myspace.

Get ready for Four Adultcons this year!

Visit mom often and longer.

Dont forget Smoke Dog needs you!

hey Delotta, how re you

Just became a member.I would also like to quit smoking,but I really enjoy it.More blogs please!